I wanna be..

Euthanised. Seriously.

I mean, like 1 day, if I'm all sick and crinkly and wrinkly.. and I'm probably not contributing much to society anymore anyway, then why not? Why continue to be on life support, or take up hospital space, or burden my family looking after me? Or worse, get sent to a nursing home?

I've returned all my GP to Ms Nathan.. So I was checking it out online and remembered that Singapore doesn't legalise mercy killing. --> This is additional testimony to my short-term memory. Anyway these are just my personal thoughts..

So, I don't actually mind.. It's a personal choice I guess. People who know me know that I don't want to live long. Not at this point in time. Work, play, enjoy, why drag all the way so farrrrr?

Just hope that by the time I reach this stage, I would have done all the things I want to do. Too old and invalid to do anything else anyway.

The tipping point was Mama's case.. The politics flew freely. The thoughts and feelings were sharp and jagged; poisonous; painful.

I need to take an occasional break from the world.. Like a normal crab (Cancerian), I need to retreat to my shell; my home. To recharge; to re-locate.

In a twisted way, going to visit Mama so many times proved too much to bear. Why? Simply because of the politics. And I'm not even involved. -.-

For someone who just wants a simple, happy and fulfilling life, this is just tearing my insides apart. Really, can't we people live in peace?

Oh, gooey.

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Sadly,

If a person has a negative character, whether by nature or by social forces, wouldn't everything else that emits from this said person be as so; negative as well?

Let's say, this said person has a warped outlook on life. He - since 'he' refers to both males and females as a generalisation - labels, despises, shows prejudice and is hypocritical.

As such, wouldn't the thoughts, actions, deciphering and liaisons of this said person be perturbing to the general society?

His eyes cannot see good.. his mind cannot make good.

I think it's just.. sad. There is neither optimism nor any effort to make good out of anything or anyone.

Everything is just negative, negative, negative. Wow. Tainted.

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