=)

Yay!! Taking a break from work for 2 days. A hinted that it's time I took a break since I've been working for a few weekends. If A didn't say, I didn't realise, I wouldn't be able to take a break for another 4 weeks!!

After so much had happened these past 3 months, yesterday was a welcome relief. Did nothing!! Woke late, watched TV, bought tidbits, and literally slacked the whole day away. Not itching to go out as of yet. Am simply satisfied to just waste the time that I can waste. Recharge for another stretch!

Am back at work today, Sunday, for a few hours of work 'cos got client. They are nice though. Thoughtful and friendly. Makes my day.

I like the service today. Reminds me of OLPS.

Can't wait to vball wif J and C!!

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Just another list of complaints

Oh no.. I gotta stop complaining to my blog. Then again..

Feeling all headachy and feverishy and high strung and jittery and fidgety. Probably the effect of walking in the rain thrice today.. And probably the sum of all bothers by people cascading together with a difficult someone who popped out physically today. Also probably because the past 2 weeks had been a mad rush.

Caught in between 2 parties with 1 issue, caught in between another 2 parties with the 2nd issue. Also another 2 people expecting a lot from me cos I keep giving instructions.. And I feel terrible making them work like shit. Yet stuff from this particular place simply love to keep coming, without clear instructions, and I get to bear the brunt of it. How quaint! I would not retaliate, cos I would sometimes require help from them too. They do expect a lot from our side though.. We're not always free..!

Is it wrong to want not to cause trouble? How long can I stay peacemaker / shit taker? Haha.. Reminds me of a sentence: "If you can take the shit, I can take the pain." Yucks.

And the fussy, demanding, picky, annoying, low EQ peprson!! Full of shit!! Ugh.. Pisses me off. I'm not the freaking maid.

All I will do is rant to my blog.. No point poisoning other people's ears with my thoughts.

Really really need to offload somewhere. Working on backup brain cells now.

Shut up, qoo.

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My Cherie Amour

You're finally coming back!

It's so hard to wait for an sms.. or for msn.

And it's only been 2 days, and 2 nights where I can't sleep..

Went through L's songs today, and I found My Cherie Amour..

=) Can't wait to see you tonight.

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I'm bored

Yep I am.

It's only 1030 hrs.. What am I going to do for the rest of the weekend in office?

I feel so restricted and mundane in the office..

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!!!!!

Arghhhh!!

Soooooooo many bugs in CC! The in-house lizard is something I can get used to, but 2 beetles in the instructor toilet?! How to bathe??

I probably spent a few minutes trying to flush them away. For some reason, they are really resilient. Just. Wouldn't. Budge! Water power perhaps too weak. Ended up bathing while keeping an eye on those 2 beetles. They're about the size of 2 keys on a normal PC keyboard.

We were changing out the bedsheets 'cos SOME people conveniently thought we have hotel service, and happily left the site.. So Jl helped me to clean out the room before my clients checked in. I did inform that I have a check-in today, but SOME people refused to move faster. Thank God that H works fast.

There was this HUGE insect on one of the pillows. Looks like a beetle of some sort. Size of 4 keys on a PC keyboard. Yup, this was huge. Called A over, he picked it up and chased us with it. Needless to say, Jl and me screamed. In front of the in-support group. Ugh. Embarrassing. So unglam.

Wonder if it's real. Could be a souveneir the previous group left for us. Oh man..

That's not all. For the 3rd shock today, there was a wasp of sorts in A's room, the room with attached toilet - the toilet that has the beetles. I thought I could escape it so I went into the toilet - and found the 2 beetles that freaked my bath time. The wasp flew around and banged into stuff.. But when I came out, it had gone.

Lastly, Jl happily dragged me outside on the pretext of showing me something 'I should see'. Well well.. some ants in the bin, that looked like maggots against the trash bag. Gross. Reminds me of the ants-infested snack packs.

I need a break from bugs.. My heart can take no more. Ahhhh my heores are all not around!! S has gone to Mercure.. Jr is probably enjoying the weekend.. How come I'm in office??

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Last Night

Of AI.

I'm not even running the camp / participating in the camp, yet I feel so tired.

Probably getting old. Too much stuff on my mind, too much things to settle, too much issues to clear.

Probably also because my sleep habits are getting warped. These 4 nights, I have been hooked to working at night - when it's more peaceful, and thus, in the day, I am more lethargic.

I'm starting to dry myself up mentally...

Still thrilled that he's making an effort to come to camp every night. =)

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=S

In the office.. At the site itself, besides being mosquito feeders and bug escapers, we are now ant killers too.

6 teams' snack packs were infested with ants today. The packs were still fine yesterday. The ants literally chewed through the plastic, and swarmed into the biscuits!

All the biscuits and tins supporting the packs were overrun with ants. Big ones, small ones.. I observed them for a while. Interesting! They're like 2 way traffic - neatly going to and from the food source. The big ants chewed the holes and the small ones got the food out. Jl was asking how long it would take for the ants to clear up all the food.

We did not want to find out. Jr bravely picked the packs up and threw them away. Then he swept away the rest as if they were only dust.

Jl then took our only can of pesticide, and sprayed those outside the office door. They have gotten everywhere!! Probably some nest somewhere.

Not like we can help it. We should get used to it! This being a rustic area and all..

It's just soo... Gross.

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quiet office

Me and V in the office again.. Just the 2 of us, until the rest start streaming in after their activities.

I really enjoy the peace here. Or, what's left of it.

Gonna be here til the 11th.. Work-life integration!! No life!! How can dear love me when I'm so boring?? Haha..

All work and no play makes qorrine duller than dull.

Work.. Time to see if the kids are done with dinner!

=)

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4 days 4 nights

How much time does it take for one to feel tired?

Have I changed, really? I see my girls.. So much more open, straightforward, clear, demanding. I see me.. I know what I want, but my style, my character.. It doesn't fit.

I find me cynical, sour and lacking in patience nowadays.

I was so happy 3 months ago. Today I've gotten what I had been waiting for, but I'm not the least ecstatic. Not one bit. The reality of it stunned me. The impact, the realisation.

There are parts I loved, and still do, but sometimes, certain issues outweigh everything else.

Well, now that I'm stuck, I know that there are at least 2 people who are willing to give me support.. Just one sms from L, and it really warmed my heart. It's not about being appreciated. It's about knowing that there's someone out there, near me, who understands what I'm going through, who empathises with my thoughts, who acknowledges my feelings. I shall keep that sms.

There is only so far that I can go to keep my worth. There is only so much that I'm willing to do, while I can, while I can..

There is only so much that I can take; I am not as strong as L. My heart rules my head. If this is to toughen me up, I don't like what's happening to me. I don't ever want to be bitter, demanding, irrational.

I don't need to be rich, famous, reputable, feared. I just really want to be nice.

My toes are laughing.. Nice people cannot survive in this world. Look at L.. He struggles so much more, yet blindness envelopes all..

There is more than 1 style in this world. I got to adapt. No one will hear reason.

I don't know what I'm talking about. Stop complaining, qoo..

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=)

I'm happy today. Actually, I'm happy tonight.

Got quite a few work issues cleared up, and the office is so peaceful and conducive to work at night, when no one is around.

Except C, of course. Kindly offered to stay in office and work with me until I'm done.

I think he has work to do too, or just did not want to leave me alone here. Well, he could have gone to buy another pair of slippers to replace the ones he lost in Bintan. Guess it was my presence that involuntarily held him back. Ooops.

The last clients at 6.30pm were fantastic too. So jovial. Brightens up anyone's gloomy day. Men are so flexible and easy-going. Nice to work with.

I'm really surrounded by great people at this point in my life. So grateful to God.

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Blessed

Yup I am. I truly am.

Work has been getting crazier these few days.. No one's in the office, no one who can help me long enough. I don't feel bogged down or ovewhelmed, just annoyed that eveything has to arrive together. Not that it can be helped. Time can never be properly spaced out.

Anyway, the best part is that he always lights up my day. No matter how things are; a smile, a hug, a simple decision like staying overnight at the office with me, to keep me near, to give me strength, to alleviate my stress - never fails to cheer me up.

He's not even obliged to help with our work, nor to stay with me if I get stuck in office. It helps that he understands what needs to be done. Such an unselfish man, and he wasn't taken earlier?

I've found my good man =P

Got to work now while my mind is still active.

Brain shutting down soon.

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