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Attended Harold kor's wedding last Saturday. We didn't really grow up together.. perhaps just the few times we met with the other cousins.. playing at Mama's place in Bedok. How everyone has grown!

Dirk is married, FiFi flying.. DiDi marrying next year, jie Serene has 2 boys, Vivian and recently, Harold, married. ST and RH; and everyone grown. We used to enjoy bouncing on Grandma's 4-post bed; or at least I did. =) Mama also had this spare room with a really HUGE pile of mattresses which stacked damn high, and when young, I loved climbing all the way up, and the window bestowed a splendid view from a 14th-floor room - no other high-rise blocking! I used to love pretending the multiple mattresses were like those in Princess and the Pea, and aunt Florence would give me her red lipsticks and yeah well.. you know, little girls love to play dress-up.

Oh yeah.. I remember being at Mama's place. I used to be under Mama's care when really young, before primary school (until first few years of primary school). I would bathe, then run out naked across the living room! Haha.. Mummy will scold me if she saw me do that, when she picked me up after work.

Aiyoh.. there was a time Daddy caned me.. Haha.. When 'policemen still wore shorts'. Raise hand, open palm, feel scared, heart beats faster, get rightly scared, and PIAK!! Hahaha!! Yeah yeah I'm laughing about it now.

And you know how kids hate to be told to go to bed.. I'm no exception. Once, Daddy told me to, and I absolutely refused. After a while Daddy gave up, and went the way of reverse psychology instead. I was not allowed to sleep. I can stay up all I want, I can watch TV all I want, but I have to keep my eyes open. If I doze, see what happens to me then. Well, needless to say, it achieved its intended effect, and haha.. I learnt my lesson. I went to bed properly the next night onwards.

Daddy was the one who taught me how to divide, at this big oval table in Mama's house. I took a really long time to understand, and Daddy and Mummy wouldn't let me eat or go home til I finally got it right (Thankfully so!)

Mama has shrunk lately.. GG is also.. feeling the age catch up.

GG and the uncles and aunts went Taiwan (korkor extra! Only young one there). The stories I heard about the airplane staff were downright disgusting.

GG is half wheelchair-bound, and a little heavy, so you know, movement is not so smooth. The staff in SG were great; good seats, spacious enough for GG, attentive. Coming back, the airport staff in Taiwan were rude, inconsiderate, have a serious disrespect and disregard for the elderly, and their eyes "ta stamp one!!". It's not like they couldn't see the state GG is in. Wait until they themselves get old 1 day. Wait.

Mummy said that Daddy and korkor lost their tempers at the staff, as the staff placed GG in a cramped seat, they did not seat him first (hey, he's elderly, either on a wheelchair or walking stick, heavyset, and with a walking speed of probably 1m a minute), they refused to upgrade him to a seat with better space, or consider his needs. GG is at a stage where he didn't remember he went Taiwan with the rest, and eating is a chore, bathing is a chore. Just wondering.. how on earth some people can be so pathetically unfeeling.

I would have lost my temper if I were there too. In a way, I fiercely protect those I love - even to an extent where I may seem hotheaded, stubborn, aggressive, etc.

It rains everyday now.. Hard to play volleyball, hard to go for a run.

Mummy joined me the other night for a jog. Well, she was supposed to walk. I was supposed to run. Mummy ended up jogging 1 round, walking 3 rounds!! That's 1.6km!! So proud of Mummy!! I was freaking scared out of my mind 'cause I was afraid something would happen! (Touch wood!) Like she will faint, or fall, or have difficulty breathing. Kept an eye on her throughout. Both of us had a good takeaway though. Mummy understands exercise is the way to go!

I love running at night, when the sky is dark, the air is fresh, the area is people-less and the atmosphere is quiet and serene. Mummy will, of course, comment that it is dan-ge-rous. Hee..

Well, looking forward to December. December will be a good good month! Going cruise, meeting Hui Xiong for Christmas, meeting the girls to celebrate and make gingymen!

Oh yes. Cruise to Phuket and Penang. With a really superb reason. We have known each other for 20 years!! Yayy.. Terence, Gerald, me. The 3 of us, since Catechism in OLPS. Wow. We sound old. So, in celebration of 20 years + Terence ended exams + I've not been on a cruise before. Haha.. Cruise cruise cruise cruise cruise!!!!!!!!!

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Frustrated..

Couldn't update recently even if I wanted to. Cannot sign in; so frustrating!

Met up with Hui Xiong recently.. after 10 years we finally met for the 1st time! He was pretty engaging, gentlemanly, polite, albeit a little shy.. and of course, he made me laugh. The night went pretty well; no hiccups, no strange silences. =P Hui Xiong is one of those people who will lift your moods whenever you are out together - not like some people who, you know.. kinda suck up the atmosphere, make things feel like a void; take the fun away and dry you up. Haha..

Feeling a little off of late; since about, 3 weeks ago. At first I thought it was just the flu bug; after a 2-day MC (Wed and Thurs) where the flu took over, I felt better and more energised. Monday arrived and it was down-in-the-dumps again. Probably 'cause I couldn't sleep well these few nights; it's not like I loaded up on caffeine - in fact, I avoided it. Just to prove it wasn't the caffeine keeping me awake. Didn't help.

I highly doubt there are any other problems keeping me awake. My mind doesn't wander at night. Not anymore, anyway. Maybe it's the new mattress cover? Haha.. a pretty corny reason.

Work is, well.. busy, and others.. Having 7 meetings this week. I'm going crazy chasing numbers. And I wonder how I flunked Math. There are ups and there are downs.. bigger ups and smaller downs - this period of time is a smaller down.. Need. To. Find. Something to re-engage; re-entice; rejuvenate me at work. I don't want to be a workzombie (like Charlie!!).

Met Bernard few nights ago. Bernard has a stoic outlook on life.. or perhaps he just doesn't show his passion. He is like a huge rock - strong, dependable; an anchor. If you're going to float away, meet Bernard. Bernard will help you find your footing. Well, for a few days anyway. Until the winds start to chase you into a twister again.

I'm still waiting for my spark! My gas! My fuel! My whatever-pushes-me-on!!

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