Frustrated..

Couldn't update recently even if I wanted to. Cannot sign in; so frustrating!

Met up with Hui Xiong recently.. after 10 years we finally met for the 1st time! He was pretty engaging, gentlemanly, polite, albeit a little shy.. and of course, he made me laugh. The night went pretty well; no hiccups, no strange silences. =P Hui Xiong is one of those people who will lift your moods whenever you are out together - not like some people who, you know.. kinda suck up the atmosphere, make things feel like a void; take the fun away and dry you up. Haha..

Feeling a little off of late; since about, 3 weeks ago. At first I thought it was just the flu bug; after a 2-day MC (Wed and Thurs) where the flu took over, I felt better and more energised. Monday arrived and it was down-in-the-dumps again. Probably 'cause I couldn't sleep well these few nights; it's not like I loaded up on caffeine - in fact, I avoided it. Just to prove it wasn't the caffeine keeping me awake. Didn't help.

I highly doubt there are any other problems keeping me awake. My mind doesn't wander at night. Not anymore, anyway. Maybe it's the new mattress cover? Haha.. a pretty corny reason.

Work is, well.. busy, and others.. Having 7 meetings this week. I'm going crazy chasing numbers. And I wonder how I flunked Math. There are ups and there are downs.. bigger ups and smaller downs - this period of time is a smaller down.. Need. To. Find. Something to re-engage; re-entice; rejuvenate me at work. I don't want to be a workzombie (like Charlie!!).

Met Bernard few nights ago. Bernard has a stoic outlook on life.. or perhaps he just doesn't show his passion. He is like a huge rock - strong, dependable; an anchor. If you're going to float away, meet Bernard. Bernard will help you find your footing. Well, for a few days anyway. Until the winds start to chase you into a twister again.

I'm still waiting for my spark! My gas! My fuel! My whatever-pushes-me-on!!

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