Professional Procrastinator

That's what I am. And this is what I do instead of studying. Put tabs on all the chapters then take a pic, instead of well, opening the book and reading =) aww such pretty colours!!

Life!

Read an article in Life! this week.. Can't remember which day it is; should be either Mon or Tues. The writer totally catches my heart.

Something about 2 of his female friends, getting married to jerks. A thinks he can fool around before he gets married to the girl (cos "that's what guys do"; and the fiancee has to learn to get used to it), and B asked for a 24hr break to relive his bacherlorhood.

The contributor of this article is in a righteous mood, and he advocates telling these 2 female friends of his, just what kind of guys they were going to give their lives to.

Easy way out is to just sit and enjoy the wedding as guests, but as friends, the RIGHT way would be to tell these girls the harsh, but appropriate, truth, to protect them from being hurt by such lousy characters of their fiances, in future.

See.. I know I'm still sore, but I really keep wondering why the gals didn't tell me til I probed. Yes, put simply, you can just tell me: "Means you and them are not close enough la!" But I beg to differ. These are the very people with whom I share good times, bad times, wants, rants, and in all, my FRIENDS. It's a 2-way communication.

So, where's the righteousness? Your idea of protecting me is not to tell me the truth? This is 1 truth where ignorance is not bliss, cos in the long run, the girl gets hurt. The girl loses out.

Am I really wrong to think that everyone will do good deeds? Like informing your girlfriend if you know her boyfriend is a bad egg, and also because he tried to hit on you, and ask you sexually explicit qns?

Who's got more to lose anyway? You won't, cos when your friend realises the truth, she'll appreciate your help. Not your friend either, cos you're saving her a lifetime of lousy-men headaches. Win-win! Yes?

Or would you rather keep the truth to youself, see your poor girlfriend get cheated and played by the bus-third, for years to come? (assuming the girl, like my case, really didn't know the guy was actually like that)

Sigh.. conscience, anyone? It doesn't have to be a close friend for you to have a conscience.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not hypocritical. I still love my friends, I just can't come to terms with their (lack of) actions... as yet.

I think I assumed too much.

uh ohh

I have exactly 2 mths to study.. oh nooooo.. I need more brain juice. I need motivation. I need..

Zzzzz.. studying is impossible with the tv looming around the corner of the living room. Studying is impossible when I don't wanna go Macs or library or school cos of noisy kids/ librarians who chase u out cos u're taking up library-goers' space/ cos there's no aircon.

I need a good place with aircon, a low level of noise, and that serves good food, to study!!

WHERE??!!

smthg caught my eye

I love this line!! It's speaks so much of why I started this blog:

"If you act in a disrespectful manner, I've got no reason to respect you."

There are all sorts of people in this world.

I don't deny that I feel revengeful. Feel.

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

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enlightened..

J and GH had been grinding my head through their endless advice. Thanks, really, but seriously, it's always easier said than done. Anyway.. J only wanted to know if I made good use of his 20 mins, and GH's in for the gossip. Haha.. crazy guys. Always there for you when you feel down.

Mmm.. like I told G.. it's my closure. I'm waiting for xxx to happen so I can finally let myself go. It's more of a for-me thingy.

I used to think 'closure' was a cheesy word.. If you want to break up just break!! Nothing else after that. It's only now that I realised what I'm doing for myself is closure. My subconscious took too long to slap me awake.

G says closure is for people who have been through tragic relationships. Not really.. more of for people who'd invested so much yet end up being betrayed. It's not tragic. It's sad.

I don't know why I need closure this time. People who know me know that yes, I mope. I mope for lost things like a few days to a few weeks, but I get over things pretty fast because I know life's too short to spend it moping. These 4 mths were a maelstrom of terror for me.

Even S believes I'm an extrovert (I laugh- I'm so not that- sorry S), so I guess it comes even oddly to myself that I'm taking so long.

Well, xxx is coming soon. I'm looking forward to my closure. Psychologically my brain has moved on, but my heart wants to mope til closure happens.

That's what you get for investing your trust wrongly.

I'm not sore.. I told J I'd forgive, but I'll never forget. I know it goes against the Bible, but have you gone through my trauma before?

I'm so, so tired. Is it that obvious? BK hasn't seen me in a few yrs, and I was stunned when he said last night that I look like I had gone through a lot.

I want to be qoo again.
Happy qoo.

Dim Sum near Farrer Park

with BK! Haven't seen BK in ages.. 2-3 yrs, at least? Though he says I've overcounted. Haven't met him in at least 2 yrs, then.

Food's not bad.. Abt $28 for 2 pax, with 11 different dishes and 3 drinks. Small portions, and it opens 6pm to 10am. Located opposite the 2-storey Macs beside Jalan Besar food centre.

Walked to Farrer Park mrt to catch a bus home. Let's just say.. culture shock. It can be pretty overwhelming.. and with BK laughing at my unease.. It just makes you smile. Haha..

Anyway, the things there are like freaking cheap!! They have a good community not to have to pay through their nose for those perishables and household items.

One thing that piques me- why on earth do they have sooooooo much onions? I mean, like really. Soooooo much onions?!! Sooooooooo sooooooooo much...

Think BK's gonna knock my head. There he is watching out for the sea of people and endless cars.. here I am looking at mountains of onions and the camaraderie these people have. Hee..

Nice night with you, BK. =)

My fav doggy

ger ger is freaking cute. Abt 11 yrs old already.. getting bald, blind and losing teeth. Still love my ger ger!

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In SSS withdrawal! Miss the little monkeys.

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