My prayer for acceptance

Dear Lord,

I pray that you may grant me patience and acceptance, tolerance and understanding.

There is a particular someone whom I meet everyday (not my family). He slurps his drinks, burps incessantly, and is probably just short of farting constantly.

Please let me understand that burping and farting are boldily functions. Partly due to air, which the body does not need, and therefore repels to cleanse itself. Perhaps he can slurp less so he takes in LESSER AIR?

Perhaps he can learn some manners, which will take him far in life. Everyone loves a well-mannered and polite man. He does not need to be overly gentlemanly, but to learn some table-manners will be a great start. He can cut down on his 'F**K!', demeaning and racist remarks too, while he's honing his manners and self-presentation skills.

These are not heard just once or twice a day. He slurps at least 2 drinks daily, burps at every drink and after meals, and his remarks sprout often (again, not just once a day). A little calculation: If he slurps every time he drinks, and maybe he slurps 10 times to finish 1 drink, x 2 drinks, that is 20 foooooooooolp fooooooooooooolp fooooooooooolp a day.

Dear God, I have at least 2 other people who back me up on this.

Dear God, I have tried to inform him. I have tried to push him. We are educated and value manners and consideration of others.

Dear God, I think I am being too demanding and petty. Perhaps you can just teach me the way of patience and acceptance, of tolerance and understanding. I am really willing to learn because I'm just going to turn crazy getting distracted every day.

Instead of asking that you change him, change me, instead. I want to learn acceptance.

I will, in turn, practise your gifts and stop feeling annoyed everytime he SLURPS and BURPS (and maybe fart, I don't want to know or smell).

Oh yes, he makes racist and demeaning remarks but censures other people when he hears other people make a racist or demeaning remark. Hypocritical, much?

Thank you Lord,
Your sheep eagerly waiting for some direction.

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Random pics!

Mei Mei don't want me to muack her!!

2 out of 9 cousins.. During our staycation at Furama, when all the mums and dads went Taiwan! We went Saizeriya, where I tried my very first ESCARGOT. This is Joshua looking more excited than Josiah at Josiah's snail tasting.

Chris loved to bully the ewoks on my table.. This is what greeted me after a meeting.

Courtesy of Yen Li!

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Wow! I can finally log in again!

Sprained ankle last Sun.. itchy hand went for volleyball. Chased after Jiang's, then dropped into some depressed sand, lost balance and 'pop!' went the ankle. No one ever said it would be so inconvenient -.-

Can walk, but finding it difficult to go up and down the stairs. Office toilet is, unfortunately, either up or down the stairs. Haha.. Daddy also helped me to rub, and each time I either screamed or teared in his face, he would laugh. Aww..

Hope it heals before the cruise! I can't squat nor run either. No chasing buses / traffic lights / time!

Coffee Bean at Forum recognises me! The manager and this girl with a nice smile can remember and even make my favourite drink before I order. Yumz.. This simply means I drink too much Coffee Bean! =)

I hope Mummy can stop her high blood pressure meds safely.

Next year's Sat duty I kenna eve of CNY eve! Major =(

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Random particles

Attended Harold kor's wedding last Saturday. We didn't really grow up together.. perhaps just the few times we met with the other cousins.. playing at Mama's place in Bedok. How everyone has grown!

Dirk is married, FiFi flying.. DiDi marrying next year, jie Serene has 2 boys, Vivian and recently, Harold, married. ST and RH; and everyone grown. We used to enjoy bouncing on Grandma's 4-post bed; or at least I did. =) Mama also had this spare room with a really HUGE pile of mattresses which stacked damn high, and when young, I loved climbing all the way up, and the window bestowed a splendid view from a 14th-floor room - no other high-rise blocking! I used to love pretending the multiple mattresses were like those in Princess and the Pea, and aunt Florence would give me her red lipsticks and yeah well.. you know, little girls love to play dress-up.

Oh yeah.. I remember being at Mama's place. I used to be under Mama's care when really young, before primary school (until first few years of primary school). I would bathe, then run out naked across the living room! Haha.. Mummy will scold me if she saw me do that, when she picked me up after work.

Aiyoh.. there was a time Daddy caned me.. Haha.. When 'policemen still wore shorts'. Raise hand, open palm, feel scared, heart beats faster, get rightly scared, and PIAK!! Hahaha!! Yeah yeah I'm laughing about it now.

And you know how kids hate to be told to go to bed.. I'm no exception. Once, Daddy told me to, and I absolutely refused. After a while Daddy gave up, and went the way of reverse psychology instead. I was not allowed to sleep. I can stay up all I want, I can watch TV all I want, but I have to keep my eyes open. If I doze, see what happens to me then. Well, needless to say, it achieved its intended effect, and haha.. I learnt my lesson. I went to bed properly the next night onwards.

Daddy was the one who taught me how to divide, at this big oval table in Mama's house. I took a really long time to understand, and Daddy and Mummy wouldn't let me eat or go home til I finally got it right (Thankfully so!)

Mama has shrunk lately.. GG is also.. feeling the age catch up.

GG and the uncles and aunts went Taiwan (korkor extra! Only young one there). The stories I heard about the airplane staff were downright disgusting.

GG is half wheelchair-bound, and a little heavy, so you know, movement is not so smooth. The staff in SG were great; good seats, spacious enough for GG, attentive. Coming back, the airport staff in Taiwan were rude, inconsiderate, have a serious disrespect and disregard for the elderly, and their eyes "ta stamp one!!". It's not like they couldn't see the state GG is in. Wait until they themselves get old 1 day. Wait.

Mummy said that Daddy and korkor lost their tempers at the staff, as the staff placed GG in a cramped seat, they did not seat him first (hey, he's elderly, either on a wheelchair or walking stick, heavyset, and with a walking speed of probably 1m a minute), they refused to upgrade him to a seat with better space, or consider his needs. GG is at a stage where he didn't remember he went Taiwan with the rest, and eating is a chore, bathing is a chore. Just wondering.. how on earth some people can be so pathetically unfeeling.

I would have lost my temper if I were there too. In a way, I fiercely protect those I love - even to an extent where I may seem hotheaded, stubborn, aggressive, etc.

It rains everyday now.. Hard to play volleyball, hard to go for a run.

Mummy joined me the other night for a jog. Well, she was supposed to walk. I was supposed to run. Mummy ended up jogging 1 round, walking 3 rounds!! That's 1.6km!! So proud of Mummy!! I was freaking scared out of my mind 'cause I was afraid something would happen! (Touch wood!) Like she will faint, or fall, or have difficulty breathing. Kept an eye on her throughout. Both of us had a good takeaway though. Mummy understands exercise is the way to go!

I love running at night, when the sky is dark, the air is fresh, the area is people-less and the atmosphere is quiet and serene. Mummy will, of course, comment that it is dan-ge-rous. Hee..

Well, looking forward to December. December will be a good good month! Going cruise, meeting Hui Xiong for Christmas, meeting the girls to celebrate and make gingymen!

Oh yes. Cruise to Phuket and Penang. With a really superb reason. We have known each other for 20 years!! Yayy.. Terence, Gerald, me. The 3 of us, since Catechism in OLPS. Wow. We sound old. So, in celebration of 20 years + Terence ended exams + I've not been on a cruise before. Haha.. Cruise cruise cruise cruise cruise!!!!!!!!!

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Frustrated..

Couldn't update recently even if I wanted to. Cannot sign in; so frustrating!

Met up with Hui Xiong recently.. after 10 years we finally met for the 1st time! He was pretty engaging, gentlemanly, polite, albeit a little shy.. and of course, he made me laugh. The night went pretty well; no hiccups, no strange silences. =P Hui Xiong is one of those people who will lift your moods whenever you are out together - not like some people who, you know.. kinda suck up the atmosphere, make things feel like a void; take the fun away and dry you up. Haha..

Feeling a little off of late; since about, 3 weeks ago. At first I thought it was just the flu bug; after a 2-day MC (Wed and Thurs) where the flu took over, I felt better and more energised. Monday arrived and it was down-in-the-dumps again. Probably 'cause I couldn't sleep well these few nights; it's not like I loaded up on caffeine - in fact, I avoided it. Just to prove it wasn't the caffeine keeping me awake. Didn't help.

I highly doubt there are any other problems keeping me awake. My mind doesn't wander at night. Not anymore, anyway. Maybe it's the new mattress cover? Haha.. a pretty corny reason.

Work is, well.. busy, and others.. Having 7 meetings this week. I'm going crazy chasing numbers. And I wonder how I flunked Math. There are ups and there are downs.. bigger ups and smaller downs - this period of time is a smaller down.. Need. To. Find. Something to re-engage; re-entice; rejuvenate me at work. I don't want to be a workzombie (like Charlie!!).

Met Bernard few nights ago. Bernard has a stoic outlook on life.. or perhaps he just doesn't show his passion. He is like a huge rock - strong, dependable; an anchor. If you're going to float away, meet Bernard. Bernard will help you find your footing. Well, for a few days anyway. Until the winds start to chase you into a twister again.

I'm still waiting for my spark! My gas! My fuel! My whatever-pushes-me-on!!

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Ramblings..

Attended C's wedding last week. The company was great! Met so many old friends.. long lost schoolmates I have not kept in touch with for so many years!

Really amazing.. especially the 'class' photo we took at the end! Captured all who were there.

Happy for all who are already married and will be getting married soon. =)

J said a sentence to me some weeks ago, which were.. an eye-opener. She thinks Qoo is never without a man. !! I couldn't believe my ears! Strange, no? It's been almost a year. Find it hard to imagine cosying up with anyone these days. I'm tired.

P doesn't seem to believe that I'm not asking for a lot.. In my opinion, I don't need someone with a car.. as long as we can take the bus or train together. I don't need someone rich, as long as he has a stable job, and will not use my money (ie. borrowing my money when he has none. It's a vast difference from me buying dinner for the both of us, etc). I want someone faithful, honest, filial, who will spare time for me. How hard is that?

Nonono no emo!! Hahaha..

September was a crazy month. Work piled soooo high I couldn't see the wall. Nah that's an exaggeration. But I OT-ed more in September than I have since.. I ever started working. Glad it's all over now.

We changed office! Same floor, different room. Fresher air, brighter surroundings, cleaner look! Smaller space, colder temperature, but altogether.. I find that this is something I appreciate.

Can't wait to continue bellydance with M. After September started, all time disappeared. Probably can finally breathe again.

Disappointed.. S does not want to go Korea with us next year, because she says that she has nothing in common with the other 2. Decision respected, but still feeling some disappointment floating around in the air. It was, after all, something to look forward to.

G has disappeared!! He's better have a good reason.. like working hard on golf.. or spending all his spare time with the gf. =P

Quite tired recently.. can sleep early, like at 10, and still cannot wake the next morning.

What am I now looking forward to? I feel lost again.. Maybe just.. earning my keep, send Daddy and Mummy as much around the world as I can..

J once commented long ago.. that even though I don't sound so, and my messages are filled with smiley faces, she knows how broken I feel inside.

It's not like I'm slacking, or have no activities, or meet no friends, or have no life.

I'm just..

Waiting. To feel something.

You know, like the May Day Dance.. the 2 months of training, getting scolded, repeating steps endlessly.. the efforts that paid off.

Yes, we shall resume bellydance.

*Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.*

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Peektures

WOW!!

I have not caught my thoughts for a long, longgg time!

Dec 2010:
Went Hatyai again with my extended family! 1 busload full of us. We're quite blessed to be able to travel as a family.. From my grandfather to my cousins - hope this can, and will continue, for a long time to come!

March 2011:
We started rehearsals for May Day Rally dance 2011 @ Indoor Stadium! Fun, interesting, new, exhilarating. Of course I would do it again!

A wonderful experience, a perfect memory. Life was great these 2 months! All I did was look forward to dance rehearsals.. Despite being distinctively stiff / lost / silly / (add embarrassing word here) at times.

April 2011:
Overseas with B, D, S and me! Thailand 4D3N. Yayy!! We survived. When you go overseas with friends, you either see eye to eye, or you will swear never to go on holidays with that person again.

I guess the 4 of us pulled through. B wants to go Korea next year!

It was interesting.. Considering that we planned this pretty spontaneously, and couldn't find suitable packages. Awesome friends!!

June 2011:
Taiwan with mummy, daddy, Ness! We had an awesome penthouse-hotel room! 1 floor with a mezzanine; a hugee TV, and lotsa space! It wasn't even expensive.

Daddy and I tend to have weaker tummies though.. So we did not eat much of street food. Ness is probably happiest.. Bought so many things! Mummy and I couldn't find stuff for ourselves; we ended up with lots of goodies for friends, colleagues, relatives!

Walked a lot.. Walk, shop, go back sleep. Wake and walk. Shop and go back sleep yet again! Haha.. For once, it really was a RELAXING holiday.

This holiday in particular tested our strength with each other.. I'm ashamed to say I wasn't necessarily on my best behaviour; patience was never really one of my hit points. I'm trying!! *Patience is a virtue..* Will not be mentioning about how the others were; I should only judge myself. Qoo will strive to be even more filial!

Daddy and mummy are getting on in years. I want to do all I can to make their remaining life the bestest ever. Hope daddy's fingers improve and stopppppppp being so stubborn. - See, that's me being frustrated again.

July 2011:
Signed up for Bollydance and Bellydance with M and S! Ultimate dance craze with the 3 of us this month.

Bollydance - the instructors are enthusiastic, bursting with energy, and pure mood-lifters! Very open, enjoy-yourself ambience, and loud!

Bellydance - more feminine, intimate, and gets me lost when my left and right get confused. If you have never seen me lose my sense of balance / direction, this is definitely 1 way to come laugh with me.

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On a more subtle note.. I still search, I guess. Can't bring myself to face D, or K, though.

Will be watching Larry Crowne with J and S later!

*EeyOreeee*

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